Monday, July 29, 2013

oh contrast, i hate you (and i really mean it)


feeling like hell.

long day.

check-in.paperwork.iv in arm. bloodwork. saline. two bottles of contrast to drink in an hour. scans "breathe in, hold your breath, breathe out." contrast injected into my iv. feeling the warmth move all throughout my body. those damn ceiling tiles. you know the drill.

ellie and barrett were good great support. we chatted it up during the hour that i had to drink the contrast.

after scans when i could eat, ellie had an awesome buffet of macaroons, granola, blueberries, kale chips, and swedish fish. yum.

as usual, felt really sick way before we got home. crashed on couch. woke up for a bit to see and play with malena before she went to bed. rough bedtime with her for a couple of different reasons.

lots of tears tonight.

going to head to bed now and try to get some sleep, although i think the chances of that are slim. but will give it a try.

thanks for all of the good vibes, mojo, and prayers today. i could feel them and carried them with me into the scans. i know that they will be coming with me tomorrow as well when we walk into that room at 4:30 to get the results. hope. hope. hope. good news. good news. good news.

anywhere i go, you go. xo


  1. I know it took a lot energy/stength to post this today, but thanks for keeping us peeps in the loop. Was thinking of you today -- since your last scans I've had some scans of my own (though not for cancer) and I now totally relate to the contrast liquid and the warm feeling -- completely awful stuff. I'm so sorry you have to go through it so often.

    I will be sending good energy your way tomorrow, and will set my alarm to send an extra boost at 4:30. Here's to hope and good news.

  2. We are going to be sending good thoughts and mojo all day...but especially at 4:30 (6:30 here). Xoxo

  3. Sending you positive thoughts and hugs!!!!!