until then.....

good...actually, great news today. i had my derm appt and he did not need to take any biopsies (not even one!!!) - that has not happened since i have known him. so happy. that means that i am officially cancer-related-appointment free (unless something goes wrong which we all know it won't, right?) until july when the next round of appts begins. just like this month, july will include my scans and my derm appt so it will be another stressful month. i will also turn 37 (how is that possible??) in july, but will also mark two years from diagnosis (love that it is possible!). i can't tell you how relieved i am but i am sure you can guess. feel like i have to immediately gear up my own homeland security program (watching for my moles changing, etc.) for another round. but i am up for that. beats the alternative. i am hopeful that i will get some good sleep tonight, last night was one of the most brutal runs of back to back nightmares that i have had in a long time. i would love to heave the nightmares out on the back deck so that when the snow melts the nightmares do too. might have put on my snow pants and try that. right after i try to take a quick nap.

oh july, there are so many things i have planned until i meet up with you....just you wait.