relief

"be like a bird, who, halting in her flight on a limb too slight,

feels it give way beneath her, yet sings knowing she has wings"

(victor hugo) 

today was a great day. the news from the scan was good. no changes that cause concern. no more scans until this summer. awesome. it was such a relief, i literally feel lighter. i know that it was also a huge relief for everyone sending me good vibes from near and far and i couldn't be more more thankful for all of the support i have received. i am a very, very lucky girl. i remember and am grateful for that every second of every day.

monday is my dermatologist appointment and we will see if there is anything that makes him nervous. if there is, we will have some more results to wait on. but that is monday. there is a lot of time between now and then and i plan to enjoy every second of it.

tomorrow morning i will head out for my solo trip to the peninsula for a couple of days. i will fill you in on the details when i come back, and will try to take some pictures along the way. i have needed some solo time for what seems like a long time now. i need to catch my breath. it is hard to do that with all of the other things on my plate. it is time for a quiet recharge. i am not going away from anything or anyone,  it is more like going towards something. giving myself a little bit of time to heal. focus on the year ahead. let go of some things from the last year. embrace the realities of my life now. grieve some of the things that have been lost along the way. feel my wings again. appreciate that i have been given more time.

more time.

two words that i never knew before my diagnosis could sound so, so good.

so it will be a few days before you hear from me again. in the meantime, have a great weekend peeps. i hope that you do something fun just because you can. just because you should. just because you deserve it (you know you do and so do i). just because you have the time.

make the time.

everything else can wait.

trust me.