results day

so tomorrow is results day. 

again.

we will know whether the tumors have grown or stayed the same - or if a miracle has happened and they have shrunk.

to say i am anxious is an understatement.

i hate these nights.

barrett and i used to binge watch tv for most of the night.

i can't do that anymore, the fatigue is way too bad now.

i have not been sleeping well and have been having my usual sleep companions leading up to scans - nightmares.

i don't expect anything different tonight.

so please send your good vibes and love and prayers. 

results come early around 9am so i will know soon in the day which i am thankful for since this has already been dragged out long enough from friday.

please also keep sending your love to beth as she started her clinical trial today and now takes her chemo infusion home with her for the next couple of days. the new routine which should never have to be a routine. on a very, very good note - beth got engaged over the weekend and that makes my heart so, so, so, happy. there are no words.

i will let you know as soon as i can what the results are.

gloves up.

here we go again.

anywhere i fight, you fight. xo