tuesday morning beth goes in to get her results.
send her every single piece of prayers, mojo, love and goodness that you have.
there are many things that i could say about how i feel about what is going on for beth and this appointment tomorrow. but this isn't about me. it is about beth.
so here is how she is feeling today:
Tomorrow brings the news of what my future holds. And it's hard for me to imagine. I don't want to spend the rest of my life being sick, that thought is unimaginable. The appointment with my oncologist is at 9:30. Lars will be with me and my parents on the phone.
I am still praying for immunotherapy, or a treatment that will work and minimize the side effects. I am praying for a miracle. That the cancer will be curable and the spots will disappear. I don't care what it takes.
With everything going on after my trip to Portland I flew straight to Palm Springs to be with Lars for spring break. I am so glad I did. It was good to be away and together. I also got to have dinner with a friend from college which was great.
I know it's not helpful but I keep thinking about what I may not be able to do in the future. can't eat this or can't travel here. Will I be able to take that on at work. And those thoughts are as depressing as they sound.
I have told my boss at work but haven't told everyone else. I figure once I know a plan I will need to share the news. And how do I tell them again.
I don't know what tomorrow brings. Lars and I took the whole day off so we are talking about going up to the tulip festival after the appointment. See some color and have a little roadtrip for the day before I see my counselor. My anxiety is definitely building for tomorrow. I want to stay in this bubble where I am not having to do anything.
Thank you for your love, support and prayers.
With everything going on after my trip to Portland I flew straight to Palm Springs to be with Lars for spring break. I am so glad I did. It was good to be away and together. I also got to have dinner with a friend from college which was great.
I know it's not helpful but I keep thinking about what I may not be able to do in the future. can't eat this or can't travel here. Will I be able to take that on at work. And those thoughts are as depressing as they sound.
I have told my boss at work but haven't told everyone else. I figure once I know a plan I will need to share the news. And how do I tell them again.
I don't know what tomorrow brings. Lars and I took the whole day off so we are talking about going up to the tulip festival after the appointment. See some color and have a little roadtrip for the day before I see my counselor. My anxiety is definitely building for tomorrow. I want to stay in this bubble where I am not having to do anything.
Thank you for your love, support and prayers.
but what i can do is ask all of you to send everything good you have to beth tomorrow.
raise those gloves up high for her tomorrow.
i know i will be.
thank you. xoxo
Sending prayer for good news for Beth. Every single one of you deserve that and so much more. xoxo
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