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“happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times,

if one only remembers to turn on the light.”

 

(j. k. rowling)

my cancervisary.

1,460 days since that call i picked up when i heard the word "cancer".

there are probably a million things that i could say about this day and what it means.

if you have read this blog long enough, you know what this day holds for me.

the truth is, i am too tired from feeling and thinking about what it brings to write much about it tonight.

so instead i am going to bring a little bit of light to the day.

i am going to sleep in. i am going to watch cartoons with malena for as long as we feel like it. we are going to hang out. i am going to get a massage. i am going to have some dinner out with barrett. i am going to send birthday wishes to my friend mari who celebrates her birthday on july 16th, she is my favorite part of this day every year (happy bday mar-dog;)).

i am going to do my best to minimize the dark. it won't be gone, it always lurks in the shadows, no more on any other day of the year than this one.

but four years later, i am here.

i am here.

that is reason enough to turn on the light.

+++ sharon update - her tumor markers are high so she has some more tests coming up in the next week with results on the 29th. so keep sending your good thoughts and love her way -- i just know that she is going to get good results and will keep kicking cancer in the you-know-what!