Monday, February 27, 2012
don't tell barrett (i often like to brag about my perfect driving skills), but today i got lost in bellevue when i left my doctor's office. i thought that i was taking a shortcut, that was an incorrect assumption. it was a longcut. when i realized that i didn't know where i was, i got really anxious. i drove around for a little bit before i thought 1) i could figure out where i am by using my phone - duh, 2) i am bellevue, how lost can i really get, and 3) my car tells me i am going west, i need to go east, so i need to turn around. since i am writing this, you can probably tell that i made it home safe and sound. once i got going the right direction and figured out where i was, i realized how anxious i was by not knowing where i was and where i was going. one of those moments when i think about how my anxiety meter seems to be on a faster throttle these days. what was clear was that i didn't like not knowing where i was and where i was headed. but if i ever go that way again i will know exactly what to do. i realized while i drove home that i feel the same way about cancer, if it was to come my way again, i feel like i would atleast know which way to head and what to do next. so for that reason, the short(long)cut was a goodcut.