it's one of those mondays

"i like living.

i have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow;

but through it all i still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing"

(agathie christie)

yep, it is one of those mondays.

treatment day.

but due to the trial, i have to fast for this one.

bloodwork starts at 7:40am.

then two ekgs at 8:30.

then doctor appointment and meet with clinical trial lead.

then infusion of my drug should start around 11:30.

then i take my trial drugs.

then my infusion of iron around 12:30.

then either home to rest or work, depends on how the day goes.

the gloves above are new boxing gloves that were sent to me from my friends greta and wallace in new jersey. greta is also a stage iv melanoma fighter and is now home with hospice care. i have wrote about them many times and recently in this space. please continue to send them all of the love and prayers you can. they sent me these gloves and told me to keep on fighting. 

so tomorrow i will pick up these gloves and put them on and officially walk back into the ring. although i have a couple of weeks in on the trial, i don't think know i was not fully ready to pick up any gloves again.

but tomorrow i will.

for wallace and for greta and for their son.

they asked me to keep fighting, and one fighter doesn't let another fighter down.

i had a smaller pair of boxing gloves that i would take with me to my appointments, scans, etc. when my sister-in-law kim went through her surgeries, i gave the gloves to her because i knew they belonged with her at that time. she eventually gave them back to me when we knew things weren't going my way and i just recently gave them to a boy i know who is fighting crohn's disease and has to go to infusions too (which is only a small part of what he is going through). i figured they belonged to him now since he has had to join the fight club and needed some battle gear of his own to take to his appointments. as i said above, fighters stick together.

so bring it on monday, you will be tough but i will be tougher.

anywhere i fight, you fight.

here we go again. xoxo